dalissa

married? hah.. biar betul aku nak ckp pasal ni.. of course it isn’t me. n definitely not going to be me. but at least ppl around me are getting married. gud for them! my exes pun dh n nk kawen. gud for them too! happy for them! really! i’m not trying to coax myself though. well.. life goes on… they found their other halves n that’s it! they’ll walk into the other major step of their life. i’m happy though to know that they are happy.

my ex 5 yrs, my ex 1 yr n my ex fiance; finally they had married/getting married wif someone that honestly n truly for them. me? nah.. not ready though. ntahla.. y hati aku sangat tertutup utk sesiapa. bukan aku trauma, bukan aku mengada, bukan aku phobia; it’s just that i’m not ready. bila aku dh ready; well.. tiba2 saja aku found out he’s letting himself out of me.

tu la dia, aku nak pada yg tak nak. aku tak nak pada yg nak. dia selalu ckp; “terima org yg sukakan kita”. macam mana aku nak terima org yg sukakan aku if hati aku tak ada pada org yg nkkan aku tu.. tak apa la.. maybe jodoh aku belum sampai.. anyway, baru 26 kan.. next year baru 27. abah n mak pun tak bising2. aku pun malas nak sibuk2. lgpun, aku baru nak start. baru sgt2 nak develop career. hmm.. ada tu ada la.. cuma yg aku tau n confirm; bukanla waktu terdekat ni…

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